男人，我承认是禽兽……

昨天正式迈入24岁关卡。我的感受也越来越强烈……

12年前，我的父母婚姻亮起红灯。
母亲单方面要求离婚。
我便搬到婆婆家住。
因为我是长女，必须跟随父亲。

但是，这场婚姻还是被爸爸挽留下来。
红灯也转变成绿灯……

12年后的今天……
当我决定回家工作，为了共享天伦之乐。
听起来好像老人家才会说出来的话；但是，你真的有一天比白发人先走了呢？
于是，我回家了。

为了念书，我离开家。
为了工作，我离开家。

但是，当我决定回家时……噩耗却涌上看似和平的家。
我父母的婚姻再次亮起红灯。

我以为我回到家可以开心做人家最单纯快乐的女儿。
没想到我却面临这个消息……

我哭了……
我毫不犹疑地在地铁火车上哭了出来……

妈妈告诉我，她真的要离开了……
没有办法像以前一样留在父亲身边了。
我……没有出言阻止。
因为我不是12岁女孩了……
大家都是成年人，没有必要为了谁而留下。

妈妈的朋友说：“为什么你的孩子没有反应的呢？”
妈妈耸一耸肩，我低头假装听不到、看不见。

不是我们没有反应，而是我们不能在这样自私地把妈妈留在身边。

她花了一身的青春给我们。
下半生的生活故事应该由他们自己去写上。

妈妈决定离开前，她和爸爸一定有吵架的。
妈妈的质问，爸爸却说男人是这样的，你不知道吗？
男人是禽兽，你不知道吗？

姑姑却告诉我，爸爸算有良心，他会回家。

是你，你接受到吗？
我……不行。

自己的选择，自己决定。
重要的是我们还在你身边……

Wonder Woman

在中国，它叫神奇女侠。
在台湾，它叫神力女超人。
可是，我更爱"Wonder Woman" 这个称号。

故事讲述女人力量转换世界和平。
神话故事讲述天神“宙斯”用最后一口气打造了天堂岛。 天神的儿子”阿瑞斯“不喜欢爸爸创造的一切，尤其是人类。于是天神弟弟变成战斗之神。但是，战斗之神知道自己的力量单薄；于是他诱惑人心，宣传他的理念 — 战斗。好让爸爸的创造—人类自行摧毁。这样，战斗之神可以利用人类黑暗面来战胜爸爸。

天堂岛的女王过分的照顾和保护黛安娜。可是，女王的妹妹觉得黛安娜必须像其他亚马逊人一样学习战斗才能战胜他们的天敌—战斗之神。有一天，天堂岛闯进人类。黛安娜知道他们一直要保护的人类在互相残杀。她和人类”史提夫“离开天堂岛，拯救人类。黛安娜相信是战斗之神”阿瑞斯“的回归才会造成人类互相残杀。只要她带着宰神刀"God Killer"就一定可以打败“阿瑞斯”来拯救“宙斯”的美丽创造。

在戏里，我一直觉得黛安娜是个极度天真、真的无邪的神。她坚信“宙斯”的理念。而且，她坚信杀了“阿瑞斯”就可以带来和平。在几乎整套戏，我都觉得不可能有“阿瑞斯”这号人物。因为人类本来就是邪恶。是人类自己要互相残杀。根本不需要“阿瑞斯”就可以办到战斗的生物。可是，黛安娜却一直相信有战斗之神的存在。我相信我们这样的心态和“史提夫”想法是一样的。他也不相信有所谓战斗之神的存在。

“不是所有人类，你都能拯救的，黛安娜。”史提夫说道。
这句话就是我想和黛安娜说的。
在战场生存下来的人类是极度幸运的。
在战场上人类力量有限的同时，自己都拯救不了了；还有时间拯救别人吗？
没错，为了生存；人类自私的逃亡、放下道德、放下信念。为了就是在战场上活下来。
但是，黛安娜却是这些观念的反对者。

当人类告诉她在战场救不了那么多人的时候，
她挺身而出。
那怕只是救到那么一些人，
那怕她就这样葬身在这次战斗里，
她不畏惧向前进。

在故事结束，她才知道自己就是那把“宰神刀”。
只有她才可以把哥哥“阿瑞斯”打败；还原爸爸的理念。
她也是神。
在她还不知道自己是神之前，她就像神一样为人类挺身而出。
她那份大爱在人类的世界让她更加了解爱的意义和力量。

黛安娜就像现在的女性。
黛安娜在那个时代不被接纳；就像女性在这个时代不被接纳是一样的。
女人是不能参与国家大事的，女人是柔弱的。
这些观念常常让女性纠结。
女性开始怀疑自己的能力与力量。
但是，黛安娜却不相信这一套。
因为
爱让她相信自己。
爱让她相信自己的力量。
爱让她坚信理念。
爱让她排除疑惑。
爱让她有目标。
爱让她彻底重生。

“阿瑞斯”像人类暗黑面。
我们应该像黛安娜一样战胜的不是别人；而是自己。
你就能排除万难，分享爱的理念。
让自己重生。

超级英雄成功背后的黑暗面

在中国“奇葩说”，有个辩题。
我们需要超级英雄吗？

正方认为超级英雄是一种希望的象征。

可是，这希望的背后又有多少人看到了绝望呢？

在“奇葩说”里，正方是胜利的。
证明很多人需要超级英雄，那希望象征的存在。

可是，看完“Captain America: Civil War”了以后，
才发现超级英雄以为自己拯救的是世界，发放的是正义的能量与希望。

在被害人的心理却是满满的悲伤与冤枉。

Captain America和Avenger是我一直会收看的英雄电影。
这两套电影让我对超级英雄有了美好的回忆与希望。
虽然我知道超级英雄是不存在世上的，可是我依然欣赏这些超级英雄。

在这次的Captain America电影出现了不只是我们英俊到爆的Captain，性感的黑寡妇以外；还有新成员——年轻幽默的蜘蛛侠、充满内疚的钢铁侠、可以变大变下的萌蚁人、想要报复的黑豹、改邪归正的巴奇、保护欲极强的幻视、害怕再次犯错的绯红女巫、忠心十足的猎鹰和战争机器。

看似正义十足的阵容，私底下却互相维持自己的立场与坚持而怒打自己人的事实。
甚至被报复和恨蒙蔽自己。

在看这部电影的时候，怀着正义能量的心情观看。
可是，慢慢地我发现自己的心情越来越失落和难过。
这部电影让我看到超级英雄除了正义和希望以外，还有不为人知的黑暗面。
恨、报复、绝望、害怕、自私，这些种种的负面能量浮现大银幕；这些绝不出现在我们认知的超级英雄电影里的感觉，慢慢地在故事人物表现中呈现出来。

电影结束的时候，我都忘了自己在看超级英雄电影；而是以为自己看了一场难过的负能量电影。

虽然我讲述的很悲伤，但是在电影结局却把这些负能量一一消除。
一封信、一段话和收信人的回忆，就能让电影恢复我们心中超级英雄应该要有的感觉。

谢谢这部电影让我感受超级英雄面对的囚禁与瓶颈；同时，
也谢谢电影并没有破坏我们对超级英雄的欣赏和想象。

电影让我学到：“有人怀疑你，你可以辩解；可是，当有人阻止你，你就正面叫对方靠边站！”
你有你的信念，你了解自身的任务和目标；就不需要别人来改变你。

我会铭记于心。
谢谢你们，超级英雄。

感情 vs. 变质

人生往往遇上很多人。

这些人将和你有着密切的感情。

打从我出世的那天，我的人生有了亲情。
从我进入幼稚园起，我的人生有了友情。

在这两段情产生的同时，我的人生也有了爱情。
虽然第三段的情还没有开花，甚至结果；但是，我依然期待着……

在现在的人生当中，亲情和友情是我生命支柱。
如果你问我这两段情，你会如何形容？
我会这样回答你……

亲情像水，空气……缺一不可。
友情呢…………就像……爱情。

现在的友谊就像是结婚，看似甜蜜的两人。
其实内心是充满怀疑、生气、难过……种种的负面情绪……
他们并不想摊开来说；认为没有必要，甚至某位当事人可能没有察觉这情在变质……

他们并没有要分开的意思。
唯有礼貌地维持这段情。

友情在我现在的阶段是非常重要的。
毕竟在家靠家人，在外靠朋友。
这个理由让我非常依赖友情。

可是，不是每段友谊是完美地。甚至是丑陋地。

Review akaun.

2day,I start review akaun.
Ulang Kaji.

Hehe.

I think carefully.
I must take akaun.
N I can pass it.

I don 1 be a loser.
However,my akaun fail.
NVM.

Because I have try my best.
I can N I must can.

Now,I let me rest .
Later,I gambateh in my akaun again.

Support me bah!

I need some support...hehe

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Forget it.

Those days...
Angel n devil fight in my heart.
Happy n sad crossing in my heart.

Now,my heart bleeding.
Can't stop...

I try my best.
I ...will ...

I hope I can be different in my family.
I hope I can be myself in my family.

No 2 be a printer.
No 2 be a copy cat.
Nope!

Mom n Dad thx 4 ur words.
U say ..."try ur best in exam.
Watever ur result is good or bad.
U also can success in ur own future.
I trust u."

I cry in front everyone.
U know how stress I m.
Yeah...I very stress.
Stress beat my heart until bleeding.
Stress beat my heart until pain.

How pain... ...
I try 2 relax.
But I can't.
I try 2 calm down.
But I can't.
I try 2 release.
But I can't.

Actually,I don like party when birthday.
I just 1 a simply dinner.
That All.

I scared ... ...
Is very embarrassing... ...
Can't u feel it??
Haiz...

Honestly.
When the party start.
I don know wat 2 do.
B4 the party start,I hope can don 1 call my friends in that party.
Just party with my family.
Sry guys...
I also hope guys don 1 open a party 4 me.
I also hope guys don 1 say "Happy Birthday" 2 me.
Just 4get it.

Haha...
Suddenly 1 2 smile but i feel this laugh is bitter.
I singing...
Only singing , I can release my ALL Feeling.

2/9/2011
How fast is it...
2moro,don 1 go 2 tuition.
Stop tuition 2 day.
Let me clear my feeling.

Exam is coming soon.
I don 1 take those stupid feeling get in Exam.
Left me alone 4 2 days.

I will be back.

2 party 1 day

11.20pm

I start writing this post.

I m full now.

BBQ...

Beer...

Oh,best day !

After a BBQ then BBQ again .

( ps : in different place only.)

Full Full Full !

( ps : now I waiting my stomach can digest more faster a little bit...haha...)

Is very happy 2day.

Eat "K-E-T-A-M",right?Kuan...haha...

Eat chicken wingssss...

Eat special potato...

Drink 2 cups of beer...GOOD!

So happy 4 person drink beer

3 person sit in a motor...

Haha...I also has this experience ...very crazy...

Eat many...

Drink many...

FUUUUUULLLLLLLL....

OMG!

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Today,I also 1 2 thx celina .

Thx 4 ur support ...

( ps : 'bout my broken broken english..haha...hope u can understand...)

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Today,I be a liar again.

Haha...

I very sorry ...TCW.

I lie 2 u...

Haha...u very trust me,this is a good situation.

Haha...CW,amy don left me alone 1.

Haha...CW very sorry A...

( ps : funny 2 !!Muahahaha,,,)

BB...

New,news!!

Hello everyone who c this post.
Today,I will like 2 tell u about SMK Chung Hwa-Kem Bersepadu!
Here have some pic n hateness need 2 SAY ! ^^

4.30pm
Me,Amy n Chi V went 2 school.
A Lot late.
Amy n Chi V can't wait already.
'Cause they need 2 help those "form 4 children".

Until there.
Everyone already start ready 2 cook.
I c the 2 children lah.
( ps : I also don't know wat r they doing??)
Amy n Chi V faster go insides n help them.
Ah...A lot come...haiz...so good.
I no need lonely loh...

This is the mass when I was there.
Then,v walk 2 next place.
Da da...

The second pic--Green t-shirt~is Cikgu Suzela!!
The 3rt pic is PBSM.
The 4rt pic is Pandu Puteri.Haha...

C so rajin...
V also can talk with them,play with them...haha...
I want go to masakan rimba but I scared...'cause Miss Lee...wu wu wu wu...
Sry Thung can't say hi 2 u...

Then Alot back home,'cause later he 1 2 come 2 school again...
Me?
back 2 amy there again...

Angry!
Angry!!
Angry!!!
The 2 children,listen up!!
U r leader meh?
Y order us form 5 one do this,did that?

U know mah...
U not very clever only A!!
Listen in ur brain n remember it up!!
U just Form X..
Don't do something very LOL,ok??

Cook vegetable in a pot,u know??
Y need 2 cook 3 times?
Y??
Haiz...waste gas
       waste oil
       waste power
Anything Waste!!
U know,children?

Order this
Order there...
U? Don do anything...
Stupid!
Wake up Loh...
halo,halo...
"Chicken no need 2 cook ALL..."
"Egg...no need mix ALL..."
At last,
"Wat?! No need cook yet?"
"Ok lah,mix ALL eggs lah!"

everybody already finish...v all baru cook those eggs
                                      fry those chicken...
Go Die Lah...
So,children wake up loh!!

N the most things! I need 2 say...is ...
When v cooking,v need water...
The water is from WJM.

Ahah! U think is not thing,right??
NO!!!!!!!!
'cause the water,WJM drinking water...
All water have WJM "liquid from her mouth"...haha....
All ST.John---Haha...---DIE!!

Beautiful stages have a ugly truth...haha...hope u enjoy!!

Real update!!

Firstly,
LJW only u ask me question but
I don't answer u.
Now,I answer u.
The answer is TYT.

Ok,actually I don speak it out 'cause I already left it behind.
   actually many ppl change already...only I don know it all.

Finally,c all post from my follow.
Is many many many,I use half hours or 1 hours 2 c it ALL.

Ok back 2 the title.
I want 2 speak it out!!
Thx TYT.U let me know our friendship can continue but I also scared 2 talk 2 u...

Thx LYL.U let me know the sweet of love n the sad from the truth...

Thx LJW.U let me know wat is hate n like...

Thx TCW.U let me know the positive of having friends.

Thx EWJX.U let me know v can talk 2 each other whatever when v small...haha...

Thx TYK.U let me know the power of family n friends.

Thx TYJ.U let me know how good was "pure".

Thx HCYT.U let me know the power of ugly face.Haha...

Thx HJK.U let me know the crazy in life.

Thx CSL.U let me know the power of speak out.

Thx FLS.U let me know more of u.

Thx CKY.U let me know the result is very very very important.

Thx LSN.U let me know the power of simple.

Thx SHMS.U let me know how was the royal going with.

Thx KJ.U let me know the real smile.

Thx WMY.U let me know how angry u can be.

Thx MJH.U let me know the naught.

Thx LYX.U let some1 fall in "love" with.Haha...

Thx OPS.U let me know v can be 4ever.

Thx OPS.U let me know the bigger must take care the smaller.

Thx OML.U let me know the hurt how 2 write.

Thx BH.U let me know the cuteness of a boy.

Thx TKS.U let me know the dirty of a man.

Thx CKL.U let me know a handsome of a man.

Thx LMK.U let me know wat is LOL.

Thx B.U let me know I'm the scary 1.

Thx P.U let me know how good with those girls...

Thx PWY.U let me know how 2 be urself.

Thx LPY.U let me know how stupid can a girl be.

Thx H.U let me know how is angry faster.

OMG~ I want thx many ppl.
Never mind.
AT LAST,

Thx myself.

Forgive me that I can't forgive U

What a feeling...

"U" already long time don visit me...

Not very miss u...

Look at ur pic,
have a little bit }{appy.

But when I look 1 more time,
I become angry...

Fine,,
until now I still angry

Actually
Not very angry
just little bit angry loh...

Y I need 2 hate U ?
I always ask myself like that.
But no 1 can answer me...
So,
I just left it behind...
               away...
Some 1 say he/she can forgive
4 me--Can't.
Sorry...

U hurt me,
I will remember...
This is me.

If U tell me,can't 4give some 1 is a bad things...
But this is me.
I can't 4give ppl.
Whatever u r eldest than me
           or
Whatever u r younger than me
Sorry,
I also can't 4give U.

But I will not angry U
                  or
               scored U
Cause I care U,
so I will keep inside my heart.

Don tell anyone.
Don tell anything.
Don tell anyplace.
Don tell anytime.
Just tell in my heart.

Please forgive me,
don tell U anything.
Please forgive me,
don tell U anyone.
Please forgive me,
don tell U ...

'Cause I want 2 protect myself.

This is the reason y need U 2 forgive me that I can't forgive U...Sorry,Guys...

애프터스쿨 (After school) _ Shampoo MV

Sweet,romance,eletronical song...talk about a girl fall in love with her dream n a man story...hope u guys LOVE it...

This song let me know wat is friends n wat is fall in love...

This song I need 2 hear it everyday...